Project N1

Alright, free writing

Like many people, I have thoughts coursing through my mind at light speed. Like some people, I am conscious of these thoughts. Like a few people, I felt that these thoughts were like shooting stars: a brilliant flash, and gone in a few minutes, leaving but a vague after-image.

Maybe that is why people start blogs. To either record their life thoughts, or to share their life thoughts.

Every time I get around to starting a blog, the thoughts come flashing by so fast my fingers cannot keep up. The thoughts go everywhere, without a central theme. I keep second-guessing myself, even keep contradicting myself at times. Somewhere between the thoughts, and the keyboard, there was usually a short-circuit. My mind keeps thinking up different ways of phrasing and expressing thoughts, and each time a few debates go off right inside my head as to which is the best one.

This perfectionist (perfectionists are usually driven by fear, aren't they? :) ) method is not getting me anywhere.

So.

For the next hour, I will write naturally. Tap into my mental river-rapid of consciousness and attempt to navigate from one point, to another. Just hopefully not end up at the same place.

Where would I like to go? A little further downstream is fine, check out the new scenery, if you will come with me.

I need to focus on less things. To simplify. Yesterday I started going through the books I have, picking out those that does not contribute to my immediate goals. For example, I have a book on the KGB & CIA, and also the Malaysian Book of Records. And the Dummy's Guide to Modems. Ha ha ha.

I put them aside.

Well, you know, I have to simplify, de-clutter my physical environment even as I de-clutter my mind.

Relax yourself, man. Don't attach to much to some things which do not need to have so much attached.





Gawd. 10 minutes in, and my mind is tiring, from holding back the torrent of thoughts flowing through.

I suppose this will get better with practice, eh? Yeah, let's drink a toast to the successful continuation of this blog.

posted by n.emator @ 8:54 AM